SUSHANT TALKS :PART 4❤️🥀

 

So here i am again with you..

       Lastly, maine apne clg ke baare mei bataya tha bohot thoda sa bataya tha...but let it be so aaj ham baat karenge apne sapno ke baare mei...

         So starting from me mera bachpan se sapna hai ki mei ek scientist banu khudpe experiment karu superpower le lu aur superhero ban jaau duniya ki rakhsa and all.... Jyada ho gaya mei bass ek scientist banna chahata yaha astronomical... Mere dil mei space ki study ke liye ek special kona book hai...to bachpan ne ye khawaab mere dil mei bass superhero ki movies dekhane dekhane se ban gaya...phir bada hota gaya khawab chhota hota gaya..abhi pata chala passion ko follow karna chahiye tha...scope hai scope hai ke chakkar mei pata hi nahi chala mei kaha aagaya kaha nahi.....kaha mei space scientist banne ka soch raha tha aur kaha mei software engineer ban raha... matalab just too awfull for me thoda alag lagta par ab survival is the first priority everywhere....so my field will fully fulfill it..now mei kabhi kabhi sochta rehta what after my graduation job lunga 9-5 job jo kabhi mereko karna hi nahi tha....but i am finding a solution for agar mila to aagle aane wale blog mei bata hi dunga blog mei apna pura sach batana can be good sometimes can be bad but i will always share the truth...now  jaise ki bata raha tha ki muze 9-5 job nahi karni hai matalab kisiko bhi nahi karni hai but as i told survival is the first priority... chhodo mei to abhi 1st year mei hi hu abhi ye sochna muze shobha nahi deta.....

          Now the second thing that ki muze ab kya karna hai...kya matalab bass meri hi baat kar raha koi nahi tum bhi bata sakte comment mei batao agar achha kuch hua to agle blog mei shoutout de dunga......so second thing pe aate abhi mera first year chaalu hai so bakiyo ki tarah muze bhi bohot questions aate why computer science students need to study maths physics chemistry again and again... teacher ko pucha maine to boli you know that after 12th we need some boost in your mental grasping power....so computing some equation learn something harder makes your brain to be prepare for your upcoming subjects....so ya it's compulsory to do..but still bohot bor maarta hadd se jyada....so again on the sapna so called career dreams...in 10th muze jee ke baare mei pata chala so i had a thought sab kar sakte to mei to phod dunga IIT Bombay ke wo sapne hayee AIR 1 wahhh wahhhh...but sala corona sab khatam kar diya sikhne ki ichha hi khatam kar di .....abhi tak usse baahar na aa saka mei ...abhi thoda thoda aaraha waise...aa hi jaunga abhi rail patari par aarahi dhire dhire(normii jokes op in the chat)

        So jaise hi 11th mei aaya sala kya din the wo...6-7-8 ghante ki padhai mast questions solve karte karte maje maar raha tha but as per the law of nature nothing is permanent ye bhi 6 mahine tak raha.....then that kal kar lenge muze to aata hai are bhai thoda YouTube dekh leta thoda insta dekh leta....that time just  turned my life upside down abhi bhi bohot dukh hota sochta thoda padh leta to aaj kisi achhe nit iiit mei to padh raha hota....11th khatam hui then ayi 12th but abhi bhi corona chalu tha classes online test online so hamne koi tention itna liya nahi sab bhagwan bharose baithe mei bhi unke jaisa bante ja raha tha😞😞... Maja ab saja ban gayi kya din the wo 😍 se kya din the wo 😭 ka conversion was to hurtful.....mei phir bhi maje maar raha muze pata tha ki mei galat kar raha tha but mei uske liye kuch kar bhi nahi raha tha...andar hi andar tention thi jo na pdhne deti thi na chain se rehane de rahi thi phir esehi karte karte 12 th khatam hone ko aayi phir hamare boards aaye achanak sab galtiya samne aarahi thi wo college bunks ab kisi angaaro par jalne jaise lag rahe the wo canteen mei gappe wo yaha waha awara pan karna abhi ek dil tute ashiq ke dukh  ke saman lag raha tha.... but phir bhi ham sambhale nahi sabhalna chahate the par wo aadat jo 2 saal mei lag gayi thi 1-2 mahine mei kaise jayegi so we still not get strong enough to handle the boards... but I tried...i tried a lot....it was way harder than i thought....but it worked a little in sense but it worked i passed my boards boundry ke double marks the bole to... 😢😂

   I was too happy that bina padhe ho gaya (mei padha tha)...

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                                                                   But But But 

   As i said nothing is permanent ye khushi bhi entrance ne chhin li...so bass 2-3 mahine the mere pas entrance ke liye...i was tooo demotivated....din bhar bass motivational videos...how to complete syllabus in 3 months vagaira vagaira.....kya 3 mahine mei jee/cet phod sakte hai and all that....aur saare youtubers as the law of attraction towards money they were making dozens of videos to misguiding me..(us)... 2 mahine wo dekhane mei chale gaye but after that muze ye to pta chal gaya ki exam phodna is a myth...IIT bombay is the myth...so instead of covering whole syllabus i tried to complete few of them and that worked a lot...firstly to mere sar pe se syllabus ka boz uth gaya... dipression kam to dhyaan increases...so meri padhai hone lagi aur extra questions lagane ke bajay mei topic vise pyq's lagane laga so wo jam rahe the..maje aarahe the..uss time ki jo khushi mere chehare par thi...that was undesirable...that was perfect...the way i was focused literally it was the most perfect memories of mine....avg sa bachha abhi bhi tha but that made me happy.....in reality no billionaire is happy no poor is happy only the one left is the avg people's like us...so i pass my jee and cet exam and got selected in a good college private hai par apna hai...so the journey was tooo tought enjoying and miserable.... it'll never go out of my head now.....The ending didn't get perfect until and  unless I made the journey from rougher to smoother...so sushant baba ka pravachan sampt hota hai aur aaj ke liye itna hi....ab agle hafte aayega naya blog....btw i don't think anyone is waiting for my blog but still i eagerly waits to post it....hehe🧝 

     So bye bye see you again.....❤️